So I’ve been out and a bout this weekend. Stayed with Steph and Reppy on Saturday and got very drunk…came home to see mum repeated that.

However being home has made me realise how much I miss this place and my mum <3 and her cooking and the free food. It has to be delt with though.

So excited for Wednesday, Kelly’s coming up and then its Minor tour! Arrrrrg! I am bouncing up and down every time I think about it. I cant wait to see these guys again.

So I'll be sending out cards this year. Comment with name and postage address, comments are screened =D I'll be sending them out at the end of the month.

Green Day. June 2010. With rayneclouds , pennypan , jiigsaw  and Sammie2.

Going to be fucking AMAZING.

I need to move out of here.
I don't think I can survive here much longer.
I want to go home.

the only thing thats keeping me going is knowing that its 3 weeks until i get the fuck out of here for the weekend.

<3 that is all that needs to be said.

Thank God I met you <3

I luufs yew ya tool!

Got the most amazing birthday pressy from Taylor. I'm not sure if I can put in words how amazing it is!

Green Day again tomorrow, holaycrapola. So excited =D

I think I should take this moment just to say, your are awesome. I really mean it. I really mean it <3 you are one of the most amazing people I have ever met.

Green Day were Amazing. That is all.

London tomorrow morning. So excited about seeing Taylor I may just jizz my pants.

Bored sitting in evolutionary biology lecture. This mornings gone way too slow so thought I should update with life shit.

Joined the karate club and its going amazing its so good to be back doing some kind of sport I forgot how much I've missed it. The people there are pretty amazing as well. Its hard training the teacher pushes you but hell it feels so good after haha. That and we hit the pub after. Got way too drunk on Friday night and ended up in a childrens play park at 1am...somehow got home at 3am it was interesting to say the least.

So far yesterday was a good laugh we all turned up for our 10am physiology lecture for no lecturer to turn up so sarah and I sat and looked at the board for an hour and reading texts from last night on my phone. Interesting times.

I'm enjoying uni far more this year than last year I think its because I'm activly going out and doing things now =next week is going to be insane though. Saturday isn't going to arrive fast enough for my liking.

I'm bot sure what else to write I'm beyond bored and the lecturer completly lost me about half an hour ago. I would also like to point out that this lecture hall is fucking cold.

Those of you who are on I expect comments to keep mr occupied. I have physiology lecture next that is in no way interesting.

Ok. I'm going to London to see Green Day I can not get my head around how this has happened. I have to say some of the best people in the world I have meet of RP sites. I thought once, meeting just one person off a site who I made an instant bond with and who acually was interested in making friends was insane. To meet two, to meet a second who offers me a Green Day ticket and a place to stay is just insane. I've come to the conclusion that I am insane.

I can't believe this. This is my month people. This is my month.

I can't even forumate how much these two people mean to me.

Green Day and Minor are both going to be amazing I can feel it in my bones.

I've been waiting to see this band for ten years. Its my birthday and I was beyond excited for queing out for it.
Now I'm on my own.
Thanks. You know. Now I remember why we fell out in the first place. o
I bend over backwards, I go out my way to be there. To d things.
Why for once won't you do the same for me?
Why am I fighting for a friendship thats onesided?

But it;s asking too much and I know. Never expect someone to do anything special for you.
Never expect someone to live up to your expectations.
And never expect anyone to keep a promise.
I'm done with this shit.

Ok so the last two weeks have been beyond busy! I've gone back to Karate so I now have training twice a week a Monday and a Friday night and its amazing. I love training I've missed it so much and then we always go to the pub after so you get a chance to meet people that is also awesome. Reppy and Stephy came over last weekend, that was fucking amazing there was much lulz had by everyone, way too much alcohol and way too much childish glee at Dynamic Earth. See the upcoming photospam for all of that shit.

On top of that I've just organised what is happening with Green Day (holy shit) we're camping out for the gig to get front row. gonna be, amazing.

AND I've just booked the November Minor tour. WHY THE FUCK AM I DOING THIS?!

So far it looks like this:

26th November - 28th

Edinburgh Waverly to Aberdeen 8:29
Que for gig. Go to gig. Sit around Abedeen all night because we have no hotel
Aberdeen 05:33 to Dundee at some fucking early hour.
Check in to hotel around 3 have a shower so you don't smell.
Go to gig.
Go to hotel.
DIE
Dundee to Edinburgh 9:30am
Get in to Edinburgh about lunch time.
Bumb Hannah and skip the que.
Go to gig.
Go home to flat.

DIE

NO SLEEP TILL MOTHERFUCKING BROOKLYN BITCHES


On the absoloutly HILLARIOUS side though.
FUCKING AHAHAHAHAHA YOUR FUCKING HILLARIOUS.
Ok you can all get on with your lifes now.
ILUBBS <3

My friend James (who is from Texas and is rad btw) comes out with a fucking belter of a quote in a lecture

"If Chicago and LA had a love child it would be Glasgow"

YOU are the problem making my friends life hell. YOU are the one who needs to grow up and get a fucking pair of balls. YOU need to live in the real world you arn't going to have everything handed to you on a plate.

GUESS WHAT LIFE IS FUCKING HARD

I swear to god, if it comes to having to pick, you will always be second to them. Always.

On top of that I have lost all respect for you as a person. Which hurts like hell, because I never thought that would happen, I never thought you were capable of it.

Met Amanda in Glagow, we drove up to Balfron and I saw her parents...haven't seen them in a long time. We visted the school and saw a couple of old teachers who wished us well then we headed down to Lisas grave. It might just have been one of the hardest things I've ever had to do. It broke my heart, its strange I remember Lisa as being such a bright amazing and pretty much fucking all round brilliant person, sure we had our fall outs but don't friends? Seeing her burried just broke my heart I'm not sure that I can do it again. Meeting her parents was very strange as well, you could see it in their eyes how upset they were how heart broken they are. It's very strange.

We spoke about old times, I told them the story about when we bunked off school to go to Taste of Chaos. We saw her room...it was still as she left it, clothes hanging on the back of her chair and everything. It broke my heart seeing the pictures everywhere. There was a picture of Lisa, Amanda and I framed on her bedside table at the Drymen Panto After Party. Her mother showed us the photo album she made of Lisa from the moment she was born right up to the funeral. There were pictures of us together in there. There was one of us at the Panto Party right at the start of rehersils, I'm all dressed up in this black The Darkness Shirt, black mini skirt and studded belt. We were hugging and laughing and the two of us were completely and utterly drunk to the point I don't remember the photo being taken. It was that photo that really got me.

We drove past the scene of the crash and stopped. I think my heart stopped while I was there, there was just a bunk of roses where she had died and pieces of her car were still scattered on the woodland beside it. The bumper was all twisted and caught up, the hubcap from her wheel was half burried in to the ground a good twenty meters away. The wall had been rebuilt but you could see where the car had gone though it, the bottle all buldged out and shit and you could just see it sticking out like a sore thumb. The thing that got me was bits of her car were still scattered all over the wood land. Two years on and parts of it are still there. I'm not sure how to feel about that really.

It's unexplainable how I feel. I can't even try to begin to understand it myself.

Today has been very surreal, very emotional and very upsetting.

I wish today would end alright and I can go to sleep but my cunt ass bastard flat mates decided to have a party tonight of all nights.

Thanks guys. Thanks a fucking lot.

R.I.P Lisa.

 

I can’t believe it was two years ago today you died, you were taken from this world way too young. We miss you. We all do. Sometimes things happen in the world and you have no idea why. You have no idea how much I miss you. I’m so sorry you died before I got to say sorry, before you died. The shit we said to each other we didn’t mean it and I know you didn’t mean it. You told everyone else you didn’t. I just hope you know I didn’t mean what I said.

 

I miss you so much. I’d give everything for another chance. I’d give everything to sit in your room again watching stupid movies and diving under covers to hide from the hyper active puppies.

 

 

I can’t believe two years have gone past. We will never forget you <3

 
Summer has come and past the innocencet can never last,
Wake me up when September ends.

 

The Jack's Mannequin picture spam post =D

( Jack's Manniquin Row, Glasgowow! )